The New Bed

Wow it has really been ages since I've posted here. Anyway, life has been good. Master Torch is still the best. He has given me another task recently - this one isn't that much of a challenge. It's just more like playtime. It seems my cousin Jess bought a new bed for on the islands. It's one of those with lots of menus on it. My task is to try all the menus out and make sure the bed is working well.

This is Master Torch and I trying out the first menu - the cuddle one. It's always great to get to spend some quiet time with my Master. I also need to get posting here more often so look for me again soon.

"Burger King"

I'm a little late with this post. It's just that we've been having so much fun on the islands lately. Some time ago as a reward Master Torch let me choose something that I wanted him to do with me. Well, as a sub I do like an intense experience with my Master once in a while. I asked for him to do that with me publicly. He agreed, but then I had a bad streak of misbehaving and having problems with my speech restriction challenge. At one point Master Torch did give me a choice between "Burger King" and "Wendy's." If I chose the right one it would be this experience. Unfortunately, I chose "Wendy's." You know because those square burgers are really good.

Anyway...I had been waiting for "Burger King" for quite a while. The day did come, and, as you know, Master Torch is great. This is a pic taken at one point in the adventure. I'm still a little sore even now, but it was well worth it!

Finding My Voice

One of the biggest challenges my Master Torch has given me was a speech restriction challenge using zpToys. I had the number of letters I could use in a word and number of words in a line restricted when chatting. If I went over the limit I was shocked and left writhing on the ground. This was a challenge to me by my great Master not a punishment.

Unfortunately, it was a very very difficult challenge, and, due to my failures, at one point I could not use more than 5 letters in words. Try speaking with words that are only 5 letters or less. Anyway, my Master was wanting me to get to a point where I could go a week without being shocked. This challenge went on for months with me being so close to being successful sometimes.

Today I ended a week with no shocks! Master Torch took all speech restrictions off at last. I can speak completely openly again, and it feels great. The pic is of me snuggling with Master Torch basking in my success. Say hi to me now, and I can say anything I want! This gives new meaning to the concept of free speech.

He's the Best!

My Master Torch is truly the best! Here we are visiting Tombstone yesterday. It was my first time there, and my Master helped me find the best clothes, horses and everything I needed. We rode the trails together. I stopped to talk and got lost at one point, but my Master is a patient Master. We saw some very unfriendly Indians who said they would shoot if we didn't leave, and we even rode through a herd of buffalo. Here we are sharing a drink in the saloon after the ride. You can't see how bow-legged I am now.

The reasons my Master Torch is the best aren't really just because he takes me to places like Tombstone. He loves me, listens to me, and he always helps me grow. A Master couldn't be better.

My World Flirts With Me

It has been ages since I've posted anything here, and I am mainly doing well. But...one thing has been hard in recent times. It seems like lots of things are mentioned or people flirt with me, and I know I really shouldn't get attached to them because the world turns and changes from day to day. But, that's hard for me sometimes. I guess it's something I need to learn about submitting to my Master. I have given him control, and I will follow where he takes me. It's just I get glimpses of places that seem fun to go, and then it's like I'm pulled away on the leash and they are just fading in the distance behind me. I need to look forward instead of back at those things that didn't happen. I know I have so much to learn.

A New Home

Time definitely flies when you are busy. I just recently moved to a new home in SL with my Master Torch, cousin Jess, Anastasia, and Jess' boy Severin. Oh, and, of course, Jess' boy Os is there too, and those two troublemakers Mars and Schwanz may be showing up, according to Master Torch.

Master Torch says that part of the reason we were able to move is because my cleaning work will be bringing in so much extra money. I think I have quite enough cleaning to do now, but I guess there might be more on the way. If you need something in that direction then talk to Master Torch.

The new place is an entire homestead sim which means lots and lots of space, and Master Torch let me pitch my tent right in the center of everything. I'll make sure I don't miss out on anything, and I'll also keep an eye on everyone who comes and goes for Master Torch. I'll make sure I know if Mars and Schwanz cause trouble.

Master Torch has a beautiful house and a natural hot spring on his own island with mountains. It's only the best for my Master! Oh...and Master Torch said some things about me recently that made me feel so wonderful. I am so incredibly proud to be Master Torch's boy. If you see me around, say hi, and I can have you stop by and show you around my place. I always like company.

Looking Good and Feeling Good

A good thing about being me is my troubles never seem to last too long. Well, outside of those two months in Ghul prison, but that seems like years ago now. As you can see in the picture, I'm not too worried about the cleaning work. I've got it all under control, and I'm back to just having fun being Areson again.

I went shopping and bought some more great clothes. The last two nights in a row I've talked to Masters I hadn't met before, and they both complimented me on how well I represented my Master. I've got a big ole grin on my face right now writing that.

Oh...and when I do clean, it's a pretty easy job now. It seems Mars and Schwanz are away from home and might not be back for awhile. My buddy Os helped me take care...um, I mean Os and I heard about them being away. The other cleaning I do is for part of Master Torch's property, and he never makes that much of a mess.

So I feel great now, love my Master, and I don't think I look so bad either. All I can see right now is smooth sailing.

Cleanliness Is Next to...

Well, leave it to Master Torch to come up with something unique for my punishment for screwing up. If you read the post before you know I really made a mess of things by drinking too much. Master Torch focused on both of those things - the mess and the drinking. *Sighs

So, first of all he said that those guys Mars and Schwanz were probably rather messy, and since I was obnoxious to them I owed them something. Sometimes Master Torch is just a little too...well, never mind. Anyway, Mars and Schwanz got a new apartment recently, and Master Torch wanted to give them a housewarming present. Unfortunately, the present is me...to keep their apartment clean. Master Torch was generous enough to get me supplies, too - see the vacuum (a nice Dyson) in the pic. He also decided I have to do the cleaning while naked, but I don't need to show you that.

If that wasn't enough...Master Torch decided he might have me clean for others of his friends. I guess if you are interested, you need to contact him.

The other part - the drinking. Master Torch decided that when Mars and Schwanz have parties I have to serve the drinks...and again naked. At least I don't think this will go on forever, and I sort of think I've learned my lesson already.

Drunk and Disorderly

*Sighs. Just when things seemed to be sailing along. I was anticipating Master Torch's wishes. I cleaned myself up so I was looking even better than I usually do. I went out doing some errand type of things for him. I was in general just being a great sub for my Master.

Then...this guy both cousin Jess and I know, Mars, started messing with my stuff. Well, messing around with the boy I keep locked in Master Torch's cells. Umm...yeah, Baronet. Anyway, Mars decided to try and set him free. Fortunately, something messed up and Baronet ended up back in the cages. But, I heard about Mars messing with my stuff and got a little bit upset.

I went out to look for Mars and didn't know exactly what I would do, but I happened upon his buddy Schwanz instead. It was all I could do to keep from beating up Schwanz, because I was still angry, and I know those two are inseparable. So, I left Schwanz with a bit of a problem with shackles and was going to head home. But instead I stopped for a little drink to on the way home to calm myself down.

That little drink turned into a few beers and next thing I knew I was in this red light district with women coming up to me. Before I knew it I ended up with men, and, well, it was all a mess. Master Torch tried to contact me, and I just wanted to go home. My head was aching, I was messed up drunk, and I'm not sure what all happened. I ended up back home and half naked, and, yeah, Master Torch stuck me in the cell. I guess anger control isn't a special skill of mine. *Sighs.

Learning to Anticipate

I know I've been sort of delinquent in writing on my blog, but, after today, I definitely need to share. Master Torch has been incredibly kind to me recently. He added lush plants, a fire circle, and unlimited beer and sushi in the area around my tent. Also, today he told me I would have free access to a bedroom in his house, and he put in a skydive pod that I can use any time.

Unfortunately, my only response recently has been to try and pull something over on Master Torch and his restriction requiring me to wear a shirt. I put on a mesh shirt, and I thought I had been clever since he didn't say I couldn't specifically wear that kind of shirt. Today his comments to me made me feel embarrassed about how childish I've been.

Today Master Torch said that in response to all of the great things he is doing for me and everything he is trusting me with he expects more than simple good behavior. He wants me to show that I can move beyond simply doing what he tells me to do. He wants me to learn to anticipate what he wants.

I know this kind of anticipation is a mark of a truly outstanding sub, and I want to be that sub for Master Torch. It is the biggest challenge Master Torch has given me yet, and I want to meet it.

Second Chance!

So...Master Torch came back and called his dog Matchstick away. Then he explained why Matchstick was there. He said that the dog is his pet. This means the dog has a limited number of things he can do and is simply there to obey Master Torch's commands. He said that if I couldn't handle being his boy then I would have to be his pet with the same limitations as Matchstick. I really didn't like that idea at all.

So...Master Torch said he would give me a second chance, but I had to get a little lucky. He put a red box behind one of the doors in his rooms, and had me choose among 3 different doors to see if I could pick the right one. For some reason I felt like I instantly knew which was the right one. I picked the door, opened it, and there was the red box! Lucky, happy me! I instantly got my tag back and became Torch's boy once again.

I am so incredibly happy. I love Master Torch with my whole heart. The days of screwing up are over. I will focus and prove what a great Torch's boy I can be.

Matchstick

I woke up in the cell to discover I was being watched.

Fade to Black

Excuse me if I don't write this as well as I do sometimes. I'm wiping tears and sniffing as I write. I'll tell you why in a minute.

Yesterday I was done with untangling the ropes Master Torch gave me, and I was looking forward to a reward I had earned a while back that we didn't have time to complete. So while waiting I just went out like usual looking for people to meet or stuff to do. That Hell's Castle seemed like a good place because they've got a big castle, and boat rides and stuff. *sniff

Anyway...who would have thought I would run into Jess' boy Osmik. I need to write here about my cousin Jess sometime. But that's another time.

Anyway...Os got me in trouble before and he did it again. He got me to take off my shirt which Master Torch told me specifically not to do. And we kind of got into it together again which is another thing Master Torch told me not to do. *sniff

Anyway...right in the middle of everything Master Torch grabbed me and I was suddenly back with the cages. He was really really upset, and he's right it was all my fault. With focus I could have ignored what Os tried to do. He stripped my clothes off completely and locked me back in a cell. Then...and I can hardly tell you this...he made me take the tag off that says "Torch's Boy" above my head. My whole world is black right now. *cries

Wandering In the Desert

Before he sent me out to wander around and think about what life might be like without him, Master Torch took all of my speech restrictions off. No more limits on the length of words and no more odd ways of typing dirty words. Sweet! So...I followed my instinct and headed out to try to find people to talk to. I love to talk, and I knew without the restrictions I would be back in fine form.

As I started to roam I realized I was restricted to just tp'ing to places that I had landmarks for. I couldn't search and then tp. Well, my inventory isn't the greatest. I don't do a good job of saving landmarks so I looked deep into what I had. I decided to tp to a sim where I used to live. It had now become a Gorean desert.

I decided to go without my Gorean meter, because I knew if I got captured, it would only be more trouble for Master Torch. That might have been against the rules. I don't know. I'm not particularly good at reading rules.

Anyway, I met a female slave. I still don't know her name, because I can't see names, but we had a great conversation. She was frustrated with things she has to do as a slave. I told her how great it was to be a sub, not a slave, for Master Torch even if I screw up from time to time. We talked for over an hour about so many different things. Unfortunately, I was also not doing a task Master Torch had given me a few days back that involved untangling ropes. I'm sure Master Torch won't forget about that...

Unfocused Activity

OK, so I didn't really go into hiding. I tried to, but Master Torch had things set up so I couldn't actually leave his rooms in the sky. What caused me to screw up so badly was that there was this guy, Baronet, who tried to sort of humiliate me when I was doing a task for Master Torch earlier. I got Master Torch's permission to teach him a lesson or two. Unfortunately, when it came time for that I didn't focus very well, and I ended up being shocked...way too many times. And I didn't count the number of times like Master Torch said. By the time I left the room I was shaking and didn't know what to do except hide. Then I couldn't hide so I just went to Master Torch's cells, locked myself in and decided to wait.

The next time I saw Master Torch he told me he was going to put me in the only thing he had that he thought could teach me to focus and be in the moment. Before we got there I figured it out because I had been in it one time before. It's the activity cage in the picture. Jess' boy Severin just calls it Hell. So...I had to ask my buddy BJ to pick a number from 2 to 7 for Torch. He chose 7! That meant I got 70 minutes in the cage. It was awful just like last time...and I got shocked a few more times, and I forgot to say Sir. I still had focus problems and Master Torch got a little exasperated. I could tell, even though he was really encouraging, too. I love my Master so much.

But now, since I still didn't get the focus right, I had to put on a shirt. I hate wearing a shirt! And I have to wander around thinking about what life would be like if I didn't have Master Torch around. That just makes me scared, because I love being Master Torch's boy. If you see me around, say hi. I could probably use a hug.

Hiding

I really screwed up. No focus. Forgetting Master Torch. Don't look for me.

Focus

Master Torch requested that I write this post, because I made a mistake. Well, actually 3 mistakes. Master Torch has a restriction to my speech in place. I can not speak words more than 5 letters in open chat or I get shocked. And if I get shocked, Master Torch usually has an additional punishment or task in reserve.

A couple of nights ago I was hanging out with my buddy BJ, and we were just talking. I got so involved in the conversation I accidentally said a word that was too long, and I got shocked. Master Torch wasn't around, but he hears everything. If I don't report the problem to him, he will usually find out anyway and things will be much worse. So I reported that the next day. Then he was having me play with a boy I just met. Again, I sort of forgot myself, got involved, and ended up with 2 problems with the shocks. Sigh.

I told Master Torch I was very sorry that I lost my focus, both when talking to BJ and with the boy. He decided, being such a generous Master, instead of punishing me he would have me write to other subs about the importance of focus. The easy thing is if you don't have focus, you get bad photos like the one of me on this page. That's funny, but it's not what he was talking about.

Focus is very very important, because you are responsible for following all of your Master's or Mistresses' wishes. In return, Master Torch loves, protects, and in general makes sure I have a pretty wonderful life with him. If there is not focus, you will slip. It might be something that causes little harm like me saying words that are too long. However, it could always be something much larger and result in harm to your Master or Mistress, or embarrassment or a misunderstanding.

The best way to avoid this is to always be at your best and always focus. Concentrate fully on your Master or Mistress and their wishes and their needs. A great sub concentrates, anticipates, and executes. These all require focus. A vigilant sub is a happy sub. Take it from me.

My Open Collar

In this photo of me you can see my leather collar with the shiny gold buckles that match my blonde hair. The collar is an open collar. It's from a project to create open source collars in Second Life that are available to all and modifiable by anyone. I do think it's an excellent project and makes quality Master and sub play available to almost anyone in Second Life.

You may think a free collar would skimp on quality, but primarily because this is an open source community project, the open collar rivals any of the other best collars on the market. It has a very easy to use touch menu and doesn't skimp on its support for the Restrained Life Viewer (RLV).

You can pick up your own open collar by heading to the Open Collar Headquarters (http://slurl.com/secondlife/Caroline/159/241/2996) and selecting from the great choices of designs. I have a very simple black leather collar made a bit more elegant with the gold buckle. There are designs that look equally outstanding on either male or female subs and slaves. While you are there be sure and check out the growing number of other items that use open collar scripts. You won't be disappointed. My buddy Osmik wears one, too.

The Choices I Get to Make

Master Torch has a set of rooms that float in the sky that he shares with me at special times. There is a central room to what he has built and then doors to additional rooms on each of the 4 walls. Just a few days ago Master Torch took me to the center room, had me spin around until I was a bit dizzy and then asked me to choose a door.

I chose one - they all looked the same to me - and behind that door was a variety of bdsm equipment which always makes me smile. He asked me to choose one piece of equipment, and I chose the St. Andrews Cross. We had a great time from that point on, and I won't bore you with the details.

I will tell you that Master Torch built the excitement incredibly by letting me know the whole experience was for my pleasure and out of his love for me. Occasionally he would control my vision so I could only see what was directly ahead of me and could not track his every movement. He can tease a bit as well to slow things down and create anticipation. When it was all over I was a bit sore but incredibly happy and ready to face any challenges to come from Master Torch.

Master Torch

I will start my blog about my adventures in the place called Second Life in the best way I know how, talking about my Master Torch. I submit freely to him, and he owns my collar. I will serve him and follow all requests he makes of me. In return Master Torch loves, protects, and challenges me to make myself better. He has put my submissive heart at rest.

After I began to figure out I needed someone to guide me and control me, I began to look around for who could take on this task. A couple of times I thought I had found the person, but things weren't quite right. Although I really had no part in first giving control to Master Torch, I soon realized I had found my ultimate Master.

Master Torch is strong, firm and strict, but he also is loving and generous with support always having my best interests in his heart and mind. I now freely submit to him and would not wish to be anywhere else than kneeling before him or standing quietly by his side. Keep reading and you will hear much more about my amazing Master.