Learning to Anticipate

I know I've been sort of delinquent in writing on my blog, but, after today, I definitely need to share. Master Torch has been incredibly kind to me recently. He added lush plants, a fire circle, and unlimited beer and sushi in the area around my tent. Also, today he told me I would have free access to a bedroom in his house, and he put in a skydive pod that I can use any time.

Unfortunately, my only response recently has been to try and pull something over on Master Torch and his restriction requiring me to wear a shirt. I put on a mesh shirt, and I thought I had been clever since he didn't say I couldn't specifically wear that kind of shirt. Today his comments to me made me feel embarrassed about how childish I've been.

Today Master Torch said that in response to all of the great things he is doing for me and everything he is trusting me with he expects more than simple good behavior. He wants me to show that I can move beyond simply doing what he tells me to do. He wants me to learn to anticipate what he wants.

I know this kind of anticipation is a mark of a truly outstanding sub, and I want to be that sub for Master Torch. It is the biggest challenge Master Torch has given me yet, and I want to meet it.

Second Chance!

So...Master Torch came back and called his dog Matchstick away. Then he explained why Matchstick was there. He said that the dog is his pet. This means the dog has a limited number of things he can do and is simply there to obey Master Torch's commands. He said that if I couldn't handle being his boy then I would have to be his pet with the same limitations as Matchstick. I really didn't like that idea at all.

So...Master Torch said he would give me a second chance, but I had to get a little lucky. He put a red box behind one of the doors in his rooms, and had me choose among 3 different doors to see if I could pick the right one. For some reason I felt like I instantly knew which was the right one. I picked the door, opened it, and there was the red box! Lucky, happy me! I instantly got my tag back and became Torch's boy once again.

I am so incredibly happy. I love Master Torch with my whole heart. The days of screwing up are over. I will focus and prove what a great Torch's boy I can be.

Matchstick

I woke up in the cell to discover I was being watched.

Fade to Black

Excuse me if I don't write this as well as I do sometimes. I'm wiping tears and sniffing as I write. I'll tell you why in a minute.

Yesterday I was done with untangling the ropes Master Torch gave me, and I was looking forward to a reward I had earned a while back that we didn't have time to complete. So while waiting I just went out like usual looking for people to meet or stuff to do. That Hell's Castle seemed like a good place because they've got a big castle, and boat rides and stuff. *sniff

Anyway...who would have thought I would run into Jess' boy Osmik. I need to write here about my cousin Jess sometime. But that's another time.

Anyway...Os got me in trouble before and he did it again. He got me to take off my shirt which Master Torch told me specifically not to do. And we kind of got into it together again which is another thing Master Torch told me not to do. *sniff

Anyway...right in the middle of everything Master Torch grabbed me and I was suddenly back with the cages. He was really really upset, and he's right it was all my fault. With focus I could have ignored what Os tried to do. He stripped my clothes off completely and locked me back in a cell. Then...and I can hardly tell you this...he made me take the tag off that says "Torch's Boy" above my head. My whole world is black right now. *cries

Wandering In the Desert

Before he sent me out to wander around and think about what life might be like without him, Master Torch took all of my speech restrictions off. No more limits on the length of words and no more odd ways of typing dirty words. Sweet! So...I followed my instinct and headed out to try to find people to talk to. I love to talk, and I knew without the restrictions I would be back in fine form.

As I started to roam I realized I was restricted to just tp'ing to places that I had landmarks for. I couldn't search and then tp. Well, my inventory isn't the greatest. I don't do a good job of saving landmarks so I looked deep into what I had. I decided to tp to a sim where I used to live. It had now become a Gorean desert.

I decided to go without my Gorean meter, because I knew if I got captured, it would only be more trouble for Master Torch. That might have been against the rules. I don't know. I'm not particularly good at reading rules.

Anyway, I met a female slave. I still don't know her name, because I can't see names, but we had a great conversation. She was frustrated with things she has to do as a slave. I told her how great it was to be a sub, not a slave, for Master Torch even if I screw up from time to time. We talked for over an hour about so many different things. Unfortunately, I was also not doing a task Master Torch had given me a few days back that involved untangling ropes. I'm sure Master Torch won't forget about that...

Unfocused Activity

OK, so I didn't really go into hiding. I tried to, but Master Torch had things set up so I couldn't actually leave his rooms in the sky. What caused me to screw up so badly was that there was this guy, Baronet, who tried to sort of humiliate me when I was doing a task for Master Torch earlier. I got Master Torch's permission to teach him a lesson or two. Unfortunately, when it came time for that I didn't focus very well, and I ended up being shocked...way too many times. And I didn't count the number of times like Master Torch said. By the time I left the room I was shaking and didn't know what to do except hide. Then I couldn't hide so I just went to Master Torch's cells, locked myself in and decided to wait.

The next time I saw Master Torch he told me he was going to put me in the only thing he had that he thought could teach me to focus and be in the moment. Before we got there I figured it out because I had been in it one time before. It's the activity cage in the picture. Jess' boy Severin just calls it Hell. So...I had to ask my buddy BJ to pick a number from 2 to 7 for Torch. He chose 7! That meant I got 70 minutes in the cage. It was awful just like last time...and I got shocked a few more times, and I forgot to say Sir. I still had focus problems and Master Torch got a little exasperated. I could tell, even though he was really encouraging, too. I love my Master so much.

But now, since I still didn't get the focus right, I had to put on a shirt. I hate wearing a shirt! And I have to wander around thinking about what life would be like if I didn't have Master Torch around. That just makes me scared, because I love being Master Torch's boy. If you see me around, say hi. I could probably use a hug.